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Love is...

Love is a special feeling given to humans. Love turned the soul. Love makes a person happy and miserable at the same time. Anybody who understands love will be the love's master, not his servant.

Feel neglected...

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Hey...My mood is really swing today. I felt like been neglected in so many ways. So many... When I said so many..Its really so many...I'm sounded so sick is it??? Back into my work life+relationship plus etc etc etc...Sometime I felt so fed up about it but thinking about that back...Hey.!!This is not you..!!>>!!!..  Ok. Let sort it out one by one. Work life... Is not that  I didn't like my work ( everyone know it that you've been working in this field from the start and it just in you.. ) but now I felt this no more adventure for me any more. Somehow for the first time ever, I said my job is kinda boring now. Maybe I had enough but not really. I don't believe in that quote. I do believe that everyday is the learning process. Doesn't care how long that you have been working it must be something that I have to learn. Auwww...talking about work, is something that quit sensitive to talk about. It seem that I don't want to create other negative perception abou

Not sure...

My heart felt something since yesterday but I'm not sure why. Am I worried? Am I afraid? Am I mad? Frustrated? Not sure.... But something for sure, am not sleep well, lost appetite to eat. My mind just flow away. Unable to focus on what I do. I wanted all this stop immediately but don't know how. ( thumb down to myself..huhhuu) Tak tahu ape penghujung cerita. Tapi yang pasti, aku tak suka benda benda ni dan aku nak kata putus. PUSH STOP!!! Benda benda ni menyiksa minda aku dalam sedar atau pun tidak.Menganggu emosi aku.Aku tak suka dikejar macam ni. dan di persalahkan.( ini cerita aku takde kena mengena wei..!!aku tolong je. .) Kenapa aku yang perlu menagih publisiti atau kesian ataupun cuba membetulkan apa yang salah.Kejar mengejar yang aku tak pasti bila nak sampai hujung dan perlu ke kena kejar, dikejar dan mengejar macam ni. Takut apabila suka sangat berlari, nanti jatuh, sendiri yang luka. Ingat tu....Arghhhhh....

Emosi....

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My emotion is not stable??? Question agains..!!! Somebody help me to clarify it..Benar dan amat benar, hati ini resah gelisah, gundah gulana, menjerit perit. Tidak pasti tidak cara untuk menyelesaikan… But is truth, people said that I have to settle it one by one. It not like a big problem which our world will be explode but it just my heart will be explode maybe…iskh..iskh.. Semakin aku cuba untuk menidakkan apa yang berlaku, semakin galak minda aku berputar @ berpikir tanpa henti mengenai itu. Thinking to much?? Maybe.. But I think I should. No one will think about myself rather than me myself itself...Adik aku cakap, aku nak period…hohohoh…dia pulak lebih tau..hahahah..adik adik…telahanmu membuihkan butir ketawa di bibirku…takpe. Nice tried to see your beloved sister smile. Hatiku dibuai sayu dengan apa yang berlaku. Aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk lebih memahami, lebih mengerti, lebih mahu mengenali tapi…Tidak sesekali aku salahkan tembok penghalang yang keras itu cuma aku ras

Tanya? Tanya !!! dan terus bertanya...

  Hati aku bertanya begini tapi minda aku menidakkan persoalan itu. Kadang-kadang aku pun tak paham.Huh!!! Kebanyakkannya lagi banyak tak paham dari yang paham. pelik betul!   Otak milik diri sendiri. Tubuh badan pun diri sendiri tapi tak synchronise ker? Boleh sampai tak paham ni. Bukannya otak aku tapi gabung dengan badan orang lain. Kalau macam tu ada jugak la possibility  tak paham.huhuhu...   Ataupun aku sendiri yang terlalu banyak @ laju sangat berfikir sampai tak sempat nak di "transform" ke tubuh badan apa yang perlu dibuat. Mungkin kot??? Arghh..Mengarut jer. Aku bukan pakar psychology nak tafsir semua tindak balas tu.   Yang pasti, aku masih lagi hidup dalam tanda tanya, penuh persoalan, penuh buah fikiran sampai sakit kepala menjadi sahabat baik sekarang ni akibat daripada bebanan tersebut.   Aku cuma mahu kehidupan aku bertambah baik, berubah menjadi baik dan segala-galanya yang menjerumus ke arah kebaikan. note by writer: Nak jadi jahat memang senang.

Appreciate life...

Hi Bloggin mates… It’s been a very long time that I didn’t update anything here. Somehow I found my free time due to my sickness. I suffered for UTI. ( hehehe….urine infection in more specifically ) I tried not to refer to a doctor and just buy “URAL” from pharmacies but after 1 box there is no indication that my UTI will be reduce. It still continuously hurt me. After a few days, after my faced turn to pale, sweat come out of my forehead and been forced by “Anis” to check with doctor. I had too…( thanks to Anis for your care… J ) Antibiotic, Ural against and now I can say that I free from UTI… But that not the point here. The issued is, when the consultation session with doctor, he asked me the question that I never cared about it. He asked me, my last 1 st day period…huhuhu..I never wrote down the date to be memories. The doctor advice me to be more alert on an important thing like that. He said that, that info will help adult women to

Hmmmm...

Again I’m brought into the situation where my mind is forced to shout painfully against my tortured heart. It’s only the dark night with company of soft city-light dancing above my hair. Where the air is cool and transmitting people’s feeling with variants emotions. Yes, it is so perfect. Every being I know and called them human, am so proud of this weird intense sizzling stuff inside them. It’s like touches but never felt, it’s like pain but more harmful, it’s like love but much sweeter, it’s like universe but much smaller. I called it: emotions. Then came the test: relationship. Sometimes relationship can take you down under, so deep you cannot go back up to take your short-period breath. Some may feel it’s too gigantic for a tiny little heart; it becomes too heavy that you must rest it down for a while. Others who’s much luckier, felt it was the sweetest thing ever happen to them, saying “I’m very, very happy, so please hurt me”. Funny isn’t? How one single thing that’s suppose